what if i told you people that i'm actually a cry baby? maybe it was the 8hrs slp i had which somewhat recharged me or i was just brought back to reality all of a sudden but this morning seems a bit weird. it feels really empty. really hate being soft. soft just somehow misdirects me and makes me lose my goals. maybe i'm just too used to being logical. but current i do miss something. something. why can't emotions just be some simple equations? have i ever told anyone? that one of my childhood wish was to get a very large building where every people dear to me can stay together? i guess that was really naive of me. imagine seeing the same person everyday for the rest of your life. every special feeling you have for the person will just vanish. i guess i should just embrace the current feeling of missing something and enjoy it. maybe this is why i hate creating PRs.