There's some things in this world you just can't change

feels as if something is hinting me when the song was played. can't seem to shake the horrors from that time. the past just keep flashing by whenever the date is near, fearing that history will just repeat itself.

too much variable, too little control. the worst type of scenario. the ones i hate yet i cannot prevent. there are times which i can minimize the variables. at times. the rest i'm at the mercy of fate. if there's such things that exist.

time is running short. the stakes are even bigger and i feel as if i'm going to crumble to the pressure soon. not looking very good am i?

all i can do is to laugh at myself. laugh at how helpless i am. just like how a friend told me. how could i give up so easily, so easily beaten by a bunch of kids. and there i was, dancing with the devil, thinking i could take the lead but instead i was the one being played instead. torched by the flame.