Everytime i tried posting something, i re-read once, twice and then i delete the whole post. it jsut sounds like some loser whining

Time check: 0840... I'm currently in the school library trying to catch up on my studies.

The scary thought just keeps popping into my mind; dropping school and just do what i want to. but life just don't permit it. or maybe i should say 'society'.. saw a quote somewhere and i wonder whose parents would be so noble to realise that 'childhood is a journey, not a race.' but then again, I ain't a child no more.

so i'm caught in the rat race once again, to compete for grades, to compete and see who gets into the deans list yadda yadda. I know I have a choice of just being some average joe and just get some average job in future.

but i think my stupid god damn ego just don't allow that.

went through my ca just a couple of days ago and i feel as if its just deja vu.. the feeling of helplessness which i have totally forgotten about just creep up to me and totally fill me up..

I'm just wondering where this journey will take me now..



back to enyme kinetics..