as much as i would like to deny,it's still a fact that i cannot embrace defeat...

participated in the inter-csc race even though i know my physical condition is not up to standard and it resulted in me coming in last among my teammates. really fallen from grace this time.. from first to last.. big big drop.. damn. there's really a need to pull up my socks

but no matter what.. i still can't accept the fact that i'm so weak. trying to find excuses to cover for my fault; 'insufficient rest','unfamiliar terrain'. but i know it all boils down to me being physically unfit.

i don't know if anyone blames me but i definitel do know that that everyone expects something out from me and for some untold reasons, i have to live up to their expectations. maybe just to gain their acceptance but isn't it weird that people take it for granted that you have to do something for them and it's wrong if you don't do it eventhough you ain't at fault?