pardon for the long hiatus

but ocs' still the same, everyday's like a war; with no one covering my back. been reflecting for the past few weeks if the problem lies with me. yea. i guess it's the way i was brought up. most prob it's just like what someone notice 'totally hopeless in PR'. haha. most prob that they're just additional emotional baggage.

trying to associate my behaviors with how i was brought up; maybe its to make me feel better.

what one instructor from my wing says is really true 'they say gen Y has strong willpower and maybe it is due to our ego or pride that make us go even when our body is weak.' pretty surprised that no one actually fell out when there's usually so many fall out boys and how they chao keng during normal activities... it really makes JCC and CSB skill badge look like crap

k... enuff of the whining. let's get on to CRESANDO!

but 2 more months! and i'll be out of the hell hole.