some times, it leads me wondering if some people really has the qualities to be a leader and if what i've done is correct, the sacrifice is worth it.

i do have to admit, yesterday night, the early part was enjoying. with the guys ignoring the girls and gathering in our own group drinking.

but as the night goes, someone got drunk. everyone's wanted to dance/drink some more. no one wants to take care of him. fuck. he's our platoon buddy and everyone's gonna be an officer someday.. yet this kind of actions..

to add salt to the wound.. i accompanied the drunk for 2 hrs and after that, all the rest could do was to poke fun of the drunk and taking photos with someone who loss his ability of self control due to the influence of the alcohol.

and because of this. i gave up the 10km run with a group of people from the csc. which may result in me lossing potential company when running. that is essential for fast improvement. moreover. i know i have a chance for the csc competition and yet coz of this incident...


what a real world it is....