how anyone ever wondered? that how much impact can a death of an individual cause? i admit that this is not a good time to be writing such post. but i didn't know how much a person is to a family or even community is until today. granny has passed on some time ago and it seems that she's the only anchor to the family.

this new year is definitely different as compared to the ones we had when she's around; gathering at her place exchanging compliments. but this year, her place was vacant. the gathering was held elsewhere and not everyone bothered to attend. even those who bothered left after some time.

maybe i'm not the only weird one with no anchor and floating aimlessly in the vast blue sea. maybe i inherited this trait from my family