been quite a while since i've last updated... not much have changed...

no idea if granny's getting better. well.. she got 'better' after being discharged from the hospitable but was bedridden. don't know if it's a good thing or not as she's on the bed 24/7 and couldn't really control her bowel movement. and now, she's being hospitalized again after she fainted once more. she wasn't lucky this time. the doc found a benign tumour near her cervix, near her kidney. a 12cm one to be precise. doc suspect that this tumour was applying pressure to her nerves which causes her lower body immobility. an operation would be the solution but the problem was the doc wasn't confident if she could take the pain. the others chose to let her remain this way.. till the flame goes. heard from dad yesterday that they bought her durian ice cream and she was eating mouthful by mouthful. sounds like a kid but i guess that's the bliss of ignorance. wonder how ones feel when they're something they enjoy with a reaper looming about. haven't visit her for a month or two.. have really no idea how to face her, afraid of my emotions betraying. the image of her with needles in her..

nvm.. i guess i shall stop here