don't really know what's becoming of me. my aims and ambitions seems to have left me on the day i've grad. it's truth tt i'm self suffice. but it is only physically with branded products. but i feel so hollow inside me. it's empty.

had a chat with a good friend the previous night as well as another friend this morning. everyone seems to be advancing but what about me? i'm seriously not content with what i'm doing now; doing OTs every now and then though i know money ain't that important. but i guess that's what society have made out of me. money for uni. money to get on daily etc.

no idea if it is because that i'm lifeless that i chose to work or it is because i chose to work and causing myself to be lifeless. it seems to be a vicious cycle and i can't seem to break out of it. what i've been doing is just satisfying my physical wants. my spiritual needs have seemed to be neglected.


gosh


i really hate the state i'm in now with everyone progressing yet i'm running on the spot. and where's my strong will? i seem to waiver at every single thought. take for instant my running. i know i can do 10k easily but i just seem to stop when nothing is wrong. where's my carefree attitude?

time for some self reflection.....