plagued by nightmares, worrying to sleep. that's what's been happening for the past few days. not very sure of why or by what either. maybe it is due to what's happening recently. well, they say your nightmares are your inner fears. maybe that's prety true some of the nightmares does reflects on what i've been feeling or my perceptions.

finally went for team training yesterday. can't even do a 45 mins easy run. maybe i should just give up running. trying to push myself towards the 45mins mark but maybe the excuses i gave myself was greater. finally stopped at the 37mins mark.

just demotivated to do anything. can't really phrase it in words to the things i wanna say. no idea where to start from either.