things are really different for me this week

trying to tell myself to sit by singapore river after each AACR session but i went home immediately as i'm literally drained afterwards..

ain't sweating as much as i use to not because of some disease... but my pace really slowed down. love the tranquility in the middle of the night fully immersed in the songs played on the mp3. been walking more each day

seems like i wish someone to understand me yet i don't want to let people know more about me. sounds contradicting but yea... that's how it is.

watched couples brushing pass me each time i take the citylink saw the smiles on their face but i knew that's one thing that'll never happen to me. i know i have a girlfriend but i guess i'm just not born with happiness or cut out to express that emotion? seems pretty weird but i know it's hard on her. making her think that i have some faults with her or what but in reality.. that's what i am? i mean i'm not grumpy or what... i just don't like to talk. what's more... i guess i wasn't there when she needed me. maybe i went overboard. feeling of being uncontactable feels good with time being alone.

now that the AACR thing has ended.. i think it's time i start on my FYP report and studying for the SATs

solitary... not solitude