tried to blog this post several times but everytime i try to pen it down, i just couldn't; the post just got deleted.

there is this sense of inferiority that is overwhelming me, eating me from within. seems as if no matter how well i did for something, there is someone else there doing the job even better, making me seem like a noob. maybe it's the RO withdrawal syndrome? whereby the player is very good online, but in real life, he's just a lifeless noob. maybe tt's why otakus live their life online; everything is possible. maybe i should just cower in a corner and rot

Fyp isn't tt smooth. damn contamination. suggest repeating the experiment initially but all not in favor. now? no one wants to continue. imagine. going to sch even if there is no lesson, just to gram stain, knowing what the results will be. waking up early, to gram stain and streak for 3 hours before going home, knowing the day is ruin. isn't this committment? better then those who gave fucking excuse 'no time'. itr was thier choice.

there.... all written out.