damn

can't even run 4k decently...

ain't i weak?

and to think i wish to replace isa.

sometimes it even amaze me of how dumb excuses i can give myself, to delude myself

it's not that pain. the pain is bearable, but yet i chose to give up

why do i always give up so easily?

i just ran 2 round before stopping. went for an easy run instead

ah fuck

i'm motivated, but the motivation leaves me everytime i put on the shoes.

is it a phobia?

maybe.... maybe no

maybe i'm just plain weak

only have myself to blame

sorry if i hurt you.

but all the encouragement you gave

and yet i can't even complete some simple shit

it makes me feel more shitty