been really moody these few days.. not just because of the 'temporary' closure of Matilda

guess it's all the memories i've collected over the years, all surfacing at one go...

maybe that's how Rogue felt when the powers she absorbed all surfaced together to take over her..

alot of memories.. too many..

from the day i entered secoondary school life and met zixian... to the day i met her...

though the memories are not in chronological orders.. but i still remember them...

sad-ed

those are histories and will not repeat itself...

thinking in the MRT...

am I glad that the Earth revolves all the time? so that no second is identical

i think it is de javu that lead me to think that? I seem to reach the same station twice...

if time was to pause at the moment, and people repeating their actions... guess that's what they meant by no life...

was hoping my temporal lobe was damaged..

was afraid of making tracks in people's life and vice versa..

think that's what i want? a carefree live...

maybe that's why i'm alone for such a long time...

no idea why i'm talking about this...

since those days are over? temporary? maybe yes... maybe no

maybe this side of me is the real me you see...

just don't really like to hang out with people.. but there are exceptions...

don't really like to share my thought with people.. as i feel safer

sometimes you just don't have to show your thoughts through your actions..

with you being there for me... it's more then enough...

i may be very quiet at times..

but leave me to that..

don't have to worry..

my mind may be just doing an auto-archives on my thoughts and memories...

sometimes.. quiet moment being together... is sufficient

i don't ask for much...

sometimes my way of showing the things i show may be stupid/wrong/idiotic

but whatever it is... it may be the things I do... for everyone.. or for that special someone...

I don't need the actions to be reciprocated..

I do because I wanted to do it..

it's not because of pressures or whatsoever external factors...

blasting music is just to block out external noise...

easier for me to contain my thoughts...

it may not be that somethings bothering me...


sometimes i'm thinking... why can't i stay the jerk i was before... just playing basketball the whole day and talk without thinking...