juz finish spring cleaning.. new record..

before.. went to play bball.. the turnout rate was dissapointing la.. haha.. went to play dota afterwards..

came home... clear my things... so fortunate to be in poly.. coz no books.. dunnit throw away unwanted ones.. lolx..

but while clearing my things... found alot of my 'childhood'.. found things from people who i once 'cherished' but for dunno wad thing.. i forgot about them... a letter from my ex camp leader.. Geraldine.. i was on the air rifle course.. she was the leader for my team.. haha.. relationship was like sis and bro... hanged out together, chatted on the phone.. but no idea why.. we lost contact.. is it because i changed my phone? no idea... now then i realised what they meant by memories cannot be forgotten.. only chucked at one side... found Geraldine's contact number on the back of the letter.. wanted to call her... but i'm scared she's already forgotten me too.. bahx.... guess i'll repay by starting to cherish everyone around me.. i'm glad the shan bei people still get to meet every sat... but the 4ea peeps... felt so detached from them... when we met, it's just a smile..

hate it when you know a person well.. for instance.. zhong lao shi.. my kindergarden principal.. she's still there.. every morning i'll meet her on my way to the mrt... but at the start.. it's just a smile... now, i pretend i didn't see her... coz i'm not sure if she'd remembered me...

dreamt of mrs ngiam last night... before waking up with a cramp on my left calf... nightmare.. haha... is it coz my new year that i start thinking about my past? lolx.. how i wish i know... remembered the days she made us do 'more then' 'less then' sums... when the test came, and there are careless mistakes, we'd be caned with 2 wooden rulers on the palm.. but when we did well, we're being rewarded with blue pen... haha...

how i wish i know what's on everyone's mind