can't think of other vulgarities to scold.... so pissed off.. we lost again. and I'm the one who screwed the game up... yes.... S.C.R.E.W U.P! What the fuck... Carl finally know of his weakness.. he din get to play much..... I played the most.. every quarter I played.. fuck... was actually leading... 6 points.... 6 WHOLE FUCKING POINTS! and yet I screw it up...Yong Jun was injured... he's eyelid cracked after being elbowed.. Sebas told me to take his position.. Sebas is our temporary coach... yr 3 student.. damnit... I?! PLAYING CENTER?! screwed up.. shot 2 air balls! defence 2 error!!! wth.... So pressured.. dun wanna play.. was hoping YJ would return.. but Sevas kept making me play.. even when I asked Andrew to replace me... haix.... can't play well..

have to make up for my mistake next monday! opponent is stronger.. Though I hope I wouldn't get to play. I don't wanna screw up another match