and so the mid term results are out

sucks to the core totally. it would be understandable that i flung my chem since i have close to zero but biochem? to think that i'll pass when they announced the answers and i've got most of them correct.

enough of the loserish talk

but failure is really bitter. i guess the last time i failed was sec 4? and i don't mean it literally when i mention 'fail' as in <50%.. its just that i don't see the returns for the effort i put in and the results are below the expectations. way below.

it's just weird that how it seem that i get things done when i'm not doing anything but the greater effort i put in, the greater the results.

it seems as if i've already developed a phobia. chemistry. though i know more then what i used to know. what if another stunt appear? blank out during the papers or uncomprehensive problems appear..

seems that i was in the wrong system during the 3 years in poly and here i am...

back into this rat race...

walking away... but the problems just won't leave me alone