time for another post...

it's still school hours... but most of my group members are on IM -_-"... 'whee' what a great way to start my day... my jumper stinks... -_-".. ZzZ need to wash again... so only tt hobbit is doing the work while the rest er.. acts to work? lolx.. no idea... can't be bothered le... me alone can onle come out with these things..

have been wondering... again.. why the heck do i always want to solve problems regarding bgr? (relax... ain't gonna be really bothered by it again.. guess I'm following what that someone told me 'let nature take its course)... so why? is it cause i really cared for that party? or is it because i'm selfish? I don't want to be troubled by this thing... it's really getting me off focus..

really hate myself for being so weak.. when playing bball on mon wib perv, i'm already so tired. with so many things troubling me, my focus is way off.... shooting % is like 0.0000001%? ok.. i'm exaggerating... but it really sucks.. i hate the way my mind could react but my body couldn't.. i hate the feeling of the being in a helpless state...

so almost everyone told me tt i'm practical... especially tt wan zhen from weiqi... it's not like she's gonna read about it.. =P.. but hey... that's the way the society brought me up.. ytd.. during the course... as usual.. 1 on 1 match.. then ask tt wan zhen to the seed in a certain space. that would mean a definite win.. but she can't bare to do it.. she took pity of the opponent. leading to her own loss.. -_-"... it's either you kill or you get killed. if you wanna learn how to protect, learn how to use the knife... haha.. a little manga.. but it seems real in this society.. being benevolent to your opponent would mean being cruel to yourself