woke up ard 9+ this morning... ZzZ. phone kept ringing.. then my downstair having wake.. kaox... dunno is coincidence or plan de.. if plan de then really CMI.. chinese... why plan it at christmas? later the soul go north pole then i'll be laughing my ass off..

din hab enuff slp for 2 days le... ytd... gahment so stupid.. construction can start at 8am! cheesepie! no wonder birth rate drop, intel drop.. not enuff sleep! everyone stress! how to work effectively!? dunno is they usee butt think or brain full of straw...or maybe they dun think.. *sigh* sunday and sch hol also cannot sleep full full.. gahment provide free alarm clock -_-"...

so woke up... laze around.. then accompany dad and bro and grandma go eat...life really slowed down.. thx to grandma (no, it's not meant to be sacarstic).. my pace really slowed down.. everything seems to pass so slow.. used to dread it la... haha.. so listen to technos, hoping to increase the pace of life.l but now i wondering, so fast for wad? to die arh?

then dad dropped me off at serangoon mrt... met up wib PB0106..dunno if it's PB0106 of just some japalang crowd.. coz only gt, idly,razeez,zuo xun(left early), benasir(left early),geeta, hobbit and avan (the guy who camne late and can't find the lift).. had fun at ah koh's place la.. food was nice... tiramisu.. kaox... gt cheese.. but not bad la.. wonder why expresso tasted so good wib cream and cheese.. haha.. played taboo... lost by 1 point.. haha

left around 5.. coz she gt party.. then need to clean up le... (but we use ur hse as a place of gathering again? lolx) went to punggol plaza... coz tt idly wanna get new hp.. win liao lor.. 1.5hr wasted there.. he worse then me sia.. i already so po po ma ma.. but he even worse.. lolx! then went suntec to get perv's x'mas gift

razeez left.. then the remaining of us, went to fila get my shirt (stupid perv, wanna show off he's chest,.. wear tight fit.. i choose xl for him.. then he told me he wearing m.. cheespie).. get liao then went anderson there chill and ordered ice cream.. *bleahx* no nice no nice.. went home after tt la..

fun day la... but however, sometimes i'm thinking.. how happy is really happy? i mean when everytime we hab fun, laugh joke together... and after tt... dun you feel empty? hmm sometimes i really felt tt la.. lolx.. no idea why...maybe my act is so real that i also managed to fool myself....

alof of ppl really dunno me la... felt tt i've really worn a mask too long lor... in sec sch days... tried to be hard working plsing everyone etc etc be a good boy.. but tt so isn't me... everything seems so nice until you try it out urself, then u realise it sux. haha.. guess tt's why i dun wanna go into those stupid BGR thingy.. it may shatter the dreams i hab bahx.. so this is what i have to tell that 'her'. If you really wanna avoid me, so be it.. why does girl's mind become so narrow when it comes to bgr? it's either you go wib me or get off me... can't there be things as 'friends' (shit.. i hab a feeling i watched too much teen titans... star fire and her quote starts coming to my mind now).. but seriously la... after so much thinking (this means i hab too much free time.. uh-oh).. maybe i still can't get over that 'her'. the image of that 'her' keeps appearing in my mind and and then... I wonder why.....