People are doing the test now… I’ve finished… preparing a blog post in MS word… I know it sound kind of dumb.. But I can’t keep it in me any longer.

Firstly, is the joining of track and field. Bought a track shoes… is it a moment of impulse? If it is, then isn’t it a waste? If it isn’t.. then what happens to basketball? It’s been a long time since I took my ball out for play.. have been only going to punggol CC every sat to play with the shan bei people. I really miss the old days… when I could just play anythime I want. Feel so empty now. Where’s my motivation to improve my bball skills? To be one of the better players?! Shessh. How I wish I know the answer myself…


Secondly.. this is really freaking me out. Yesterday’s celebration of mel’s and darren’s b’dae… she was there too… but I didn’t feel anything for her.. not like the other time.. have I finally overcome it? But it’s 3yrs carrying of torch. It time could numb ourselves, absence did not make the heart fonder… it makes one true to oneself, know if it is just a crush, infatuation of really love. I really feel like breaking down. How bout the other her? It’s just 3 mths! Is it just another crush? But I really enjoy her company, I hope she does too ><.. geezx… fuck man… jie hao jiehao!! When have you become a loser???!?!?!?

Guess I should make this more light hearted. People are accusing of Singaporeans having more and more the lack of manners… but thx to who? The elders .. you hold the lift for them.. then they think they’re important… cb… not even a word of thx.. _1_.. in mrt.. they rush to the door first… I really like what 1 journalist wrote in the papers as a comment. People should say sorry like they really meant it. Like rushing to the door and stepped someone… if they feel sorry, what for they do it at the first place when they know it will happen???? ytd, when taking the train to bugis, mrt was darn crowded. ZX gt a seat.. when it reached city hall, a little girl with her dad came in. the uncle beside ZX was like.. hey.. let the girl sit.. CB!! Wad the fuck.. the uncle isn’t that old! Can’t he let the sit to the girl!? Or is it ZX is from china?! Fucker… stare at him… feel like bashing him up…

Well.. I guess it wasn’t tt light hearted after all…. Can’t find reasons to cheer myself up… fuck it.. but that’s how Singaporeans are.. expecially those from older generation