currently feeling so depressed.... hate the feeling.. but can't get rid of it..

so.. you guessed it... din make it into the isibl team.. not even team 2... worse... there are about 30 people who turned up for the trial.. 26ppl got selected... am among the remaining ones... felt so lousy.... even worse... some got into team 2 are not better then me.. trial was 5 on 5... first match... ji bai.. 2 players solo.. one got into team 2... wtf!? he solo-ed and he was so lousy and he got in!? 2nd match.. got grouped with tt 2 person again.. but with triston and carney.. won... triston got in.. but not me..

sigh... told myself I've gave my best.. no regrets.. can try next year.... but don't know why.. I still felt so depressed.. I feel like crying.. but I can't..

I suddenly feel so empty, so lost... *sigh*

Song De told me it's because of my lay-up.. yes.. it's pretty unstable... and my dribbling.. it's worse.... Ya.. Song De got into team 2.. am the only guy in the group that didn't make it.. guesss that what makes me feel sad bahx... seeing all my friends taking bball to a new stage and I'm still stuck..

decided to get the air pump tomorrow... gotta train... next time you see me, that will be a new me..... a point guard.. no longer a forward